Happy Wife, Happy Life

  *I wrote what I felt, as the words were coming. I will not edit or polish this blog at all. Excuse any grammatical errors. Thank you for taking this journey with me* **TRIGGER WARNING: This blog is about miscarriage and contains vivid imagery** As a life coach, especially being one who specializes in organization, I think it’s safe to say I have a handle on putting things in their rightful places. However, that’s part of the problem, unlike things, emotions have to be dealt with and should not be placed on a shelf, left to collect dust. I have tried my hardest not to deal with my miscarriage, oftentimes giving myself the “it’s so many other things going on” speech, but the truth is, my slip is showing and the thing that I’m trying to push to the back of my mind keeps showing up, uninvited. The Reveal I had no idea I was pregnant. It’s almost scary how identical Alisa and Baby B’s stories are. With Alisa, “something” told me to take a test, I had no symptoms whatsoever...and the same

**TRIGGER WARNING: THIS BLOG IS ABOUT DEATH AND THE CORONA VIRUS** This blog is part 3 of a series. The first installment entitled, “When Morning (Mourning) Comes: The Call" can be found by  clicking this link:  https://coachjaleesa. blogspot.com/2020/05/when- morning-mourning-comes-call. html The Second Installment entitled, “When Morning (Mourning) Comes: The Preparation" can be found by clicking this  link:  https://coachjaleesa. blogspot.com/2020/05/when- morning-mourning-comes- preparation.html The Preparation I had spent every moment from the time I found out about dad’s transition until that very moment, being busy. I was busy trying  to book the flight, busy writing the obituary, busy packing, busy planning, but now I had to sit still, with my thoughts The next day was the viewing and my only goal for that day was to embrace the reality that daddy was gone. The Viewing My siblings that came

**TRIGGER POST: THIS POST IS ABOUT DEATH AND THE CORONA VIRUS** If you are new to my blog, this is part 2 of a series. The first part is entitled, “When Morning (Mourning) Comes: The Call. It can be found at  https://coachjaleesa.blogspot. com/2020/05/when-morning- mourning-comes-call.html The Call I instantly start screaming. “Noooooo, Noooooooo, Noooooo!!!” I collapse to the floor, Brandon tries to hold me and I fight him off. I felt like I couldn’t breathe and I was going to throw up. I start yelling, “I want my mama! I want my mama”. Even in my despair, I knew being with my mom was the only acceptable action to help with the pain. With the chaos of the moment, Alisa is screaming to the top of her lungs. My mom is still on the phone at that point, Brandon picks up the phone and tells her I will call her back. Brandon said my skin was burning up. He tried to make me drink something to cool me down, I couldn’t. I make myself calm down so I can calm Alisa down. Still sitti